Tuesday, October 29, 2024

Poe for Halloween

Normally, I'm not one to speak much of Halloween, definitely more of Reformation Day person. 

But my love of literature did make me dive back into Edgar Allen Poe for this week.So I thought I would indulge a little of this master writer and editor- a tortured man who died on 'election day' in Baltimore.

Poe’s stories and poems reach beyond simple horror, pulling readers into the mind’s darkest recesses where terror is a state of being rather than mere fright. Over the years, my favorite works have been "The Cask of Amontillado", "The Fall of the House of Usher", "The Raven", and "The Black Cat"- (though I could write about many more and especially poetry). Poe’s characters grapple with guilt, madness, and despair, revealing the human psyche’s unnerving complexities. Here’s a look at each work, featuring quotes that capture Poe’s genius in psychological horror.

Let's remember a few of my favorites:

"The Cask of Amontillado":


In this tale of revenge and deception, Montresor lures his friend Fortunato into the depths of a catacomb under the guise of sampling a rare wine, Amontillado. But Montresor’s intent is far darker, and Fortunato soon finds himself chained and bricked into a wall, left to die in a stone tomb of Montresor’s making. As he places the last stone, Montresor describes the finality of his horrific act:

“I thrust a torch through the remaining aperture and let it fall within. There came forth in return only a jingling of the bells. My heart grew sick; it was the dampness of the catacombs that made it so. I hastened to make an end of my labor. I forced the last stone into its position; I plastered it up.

Poe subtly reveals Montresor’s darkness, a twisted satisfaction masked by rationalizations. His disregard for Fortunato’s suffering and detachment from remorse make this story a study in the chilling nature of revenge and the horrors of a conscience silenced.


"The Fall of the House of Usher":


In this gothic tale, Poe brings readers into the decaying Usher mansion, where the house itself seems alive with dread. Roderick Usher, who resides there, is haunted by extreme sensitivities and a family curse. When his twin sister, Madeline, is buried alive, the horror escalates as she returns, leading to a climactic confrontation that ends with both siblings’ deaths and the mansion’s collapse. Roderick’s descent into madness is marked by a ghostly smile that never reaches his heart:

“But the period was nevertheless marked by an habitual trepidancy—an excessive nervous agitation... His voice varied rapidly from a tremulous indecision... to that species of energetic concision... that leaden, self-balanced, and perfectly modulated guttural utterance, which may be observed in the lost drunkard, or the irreclaimable eater of opium.”

Roderick’s haunted expressions and unstable speech reflect the psychological decay that ultimately consumes both him and the house, illustrating Poe’s belief in the destructiveness of isolation, fear, and guilt.

The poem Poe includes within the story- "The Haunted Palace" is one of my favorites. It  serves as a symbolic reflection of Roderick Usher’s deteriorating mind and the crumbling Usher family estate. The poem describes a grand, once-beautiful palace that has fallen into ruin, overtaken by “evil things” that taint its halls. Once filled with life and joy, the palace becomes a dark, haunted place, where distorted faces peer from its windows, symbolizing the mind’s descent into madness and despair. This mirrors Roderick’s tragic decline, with the palace standing as a metaphor for both his mind and the cursed Usher lineage.

The last line is so memorable and mesmerizing: 

And travelers now within that valley,
Through the red-litten windows
(two evil eyes), see
Vast forms, that move fantastically
To a discordant melody;
(haunted mind)
While, like a ghastly rapid river,
Through the pale door
A hideous throng rush out forever,
And laugh—but smile no more. 

(When you laugh without smiling... it is insanity)


"The Raven":


This poem is one of Poe’s most famous works, a haunting portrayal of grief, longing, and despair. A man mourning his lost love, Lenore, is visited by a raven that perches ominously above his door, repeating a single, haunting word: “Nevermore.” The raven’s relentless refrain brings the narrator’s grief and descent into madness into stark relief:

“And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted—nevermore!”

The raven, with its sinister, unyielding presence, symbolizes the permanence of the narrator’s despair, leaving him trapped in his sorrow, haunted by the specter of his own mind.


"The Black Cat":


In this chilling tale, Poe explores themes of guilt, cruelty, and madness as the narrator’s alcoholism drives him into ever more violent and heartless acts. He abuses his beloved cat, Pluto, in a fit of rage, but guilt soon follows when he sees the image of the hanged cat on the charred wall of his home. The narrator’s descent reaches a horrifying climax when he murders his wife and conceals her body, only to be haunted by a second black cat. Reflecting on his initial violent act, he confesses:

“The fury of a demon instantly possessed me. I knew myself no longer. My original soul seemed, at once, to take its flight from my body; and a more than fiendish malevolence, gin-nurtured, thrilled every fiber of my frame.”

This horrifying self-awareness reveals the full extent of his psychological unraveling as guilt manifests through supernatural torment. The cat, embodying his conscience, becomes an inescapable reminder of his sins.

Well, again- sorry if I offend anyone with a writing devoted to a celebration of darkness.... but it's my blog- LOL

I wrote the lyrics and then published  two songs to correspond to this blog- Usher is the better one IMO

You can hear them here:

Usher's Fall


Quothe the Raven

Monday, October 28, 2024

Jayopsis: 20 years- Pt. 5 Updated (2022-present)

 

Note: Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 

The picture in this post is 2024

in 2022 I had two series that mean a lot to me.

Athletics and Mental healthhttps://www.jayopsis.com/2022/05/athletics-and-mental-health-day-1.html

 Another one is some research I did in crafting a new epistemology for teens. 

https://www.jayopsis.com/2022/06/developing-and-implementing-system-of.html

and then one of my life long inspiration from English Poets- these became inspirations for the lyrics I used in my song writing in 2024


2023

After finishing the series on Genesis that Covid interrupted- I spent a lot of time studying the 'burned over district' that was part of the 2nd great awakening and just really enjoyed the series:


I did not have any posts in Nov or Dec. 2023 and find that quite interesting- it could be I was feeling burned out big time- work pictures dominate my photo feed at this time period.

2024

I have to start by the series I wrote on the Book of Revelation as I was teaching class during that time- it is such an important book to read in this current culture:


2024 is ending with a series on Hope:


and the recent fun I have had converting old posts and poems into music- 

Some of you have been asking me "what's next?" and I don't know. 

I thought about posting a long testimony in December and retiring the blog-  another part of me wants to keep it going, break the million mark and then shut it down....

but if I know me.... I'll just keep going.... all -time numbers today by country





 

Friday, October 25, 2024

Tired of Wrestling the Lord?

GEN. 32: 24-32 (A PARAPHRASE)

Instead of "Jacob" place your name here and think about your struggle......

Then (your name) was left alone, and a man wrestled with him until daybreak. And when He saw that (your name) wouldn’t quit the fight, He touched (your name)'s hip and wounded him. (Your name) kept struggling, hurt as he was, refusing to let go. Then the man said, “Let me go, for dawn is breaking.” But (your name) replied, “I won’t let you go unless you bless me.”

The man asked, “What is your name?” And (your name) answered, “Schemer.” He responded, “Your name will no longer be Schemer but ‘God-Striver,’ for you have wrestled with God and with men and have overcome.” Then (your name) asked, “Are you God? Do you care?” And in that moment, the Lord blessed (your name), even as he sweated, hurt, and bled from the struggle.

So (your name) called that place “the Face of God,” saying, “I have seen God face to face, yet my life has been preserved.” As the sun rose, he crossed the river toward a new adventure, limping from his wound but carrying the blessing. It was time for more than survival; it was time to receive an even greater blessing.

The Life of the Wrestler

Life is full of battles, and every one shapes us in ways we can’t always see at first. This passage is Jacob’s story, one of a lifetime of struggle that transformed him from the inside out. His original name, “Schemer” or “Deceiver,” reflected the way he spent his days—always maneuvering, manipulating, trying to force life to fit his plans.

Through many hard-won experiences, Jacob was slowly changed. This culmination—wrestling with God—gave him a new name and destiny. But growth always includes pain. Just like Jacob, we, too, come face-to-face with God in our struggles.

Putting yourself in Jacob’s place reveals something personal about this wrestling. 

I know this because I’ve faced tough times, moments when it felt like life itself might break apart. My hardships may seem small in comparison to the suffering of others, but I have felt betrayal, disappointment, and dark moments where hope seemed distant. Football games have brought their own pains, and in life, I’ve known defeat and despair.

But through these battles, I’ve learned to keep fighting. Jacob wrestled all night. In our darkest times, when we feel like giving up, we have to keep striving. There’s a fierce courage in holding on, no matter the cost.

Wrestling Tactics: From Fighting Against to Holding On

Notice something about the tactic Jacob uses. The Lord initiates the struggle, and at first, Jacob resists. But as the night wears on, Jacob’s approach changes. Instead of pushing away, he starts to cling to God. When God said, “Let me go,” Jacob replied, “Not until you bless me.” 

What a shift! This moment defines not just the struggle but the way we grow through it—by holding fast to God, even when it hurts.

Are you facing a battle in your life? Have you tried pressing into God instead of pushing against Him? Can you have a battle-tested heart that says, “God, even if this breaks me, I’m not letting go until You bless me”?

Scars and limps may come, but those are signs of victory. Jesus kept His scars too—they are marks of His love and triumph!

A Prayer for the Journey

Lord, thank You for this hard road. Give me strength and courage to keep fighting, and teach me to cling to You no matter the cost. I want to find Your blessing and walk with You, even if it leaves a mark.

Songs for the Journey

Jacob's Limp (My Limp of Purpose)

Rays and Shadows

Thursday, October 24, 2024

Jayopsis: 20 years- Pt. 4 Explosion (2018-2021)

 

Note: Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 

The picture in this post is Sept. 2020

If you ever want to just mark a seismic shift in my writing- all you have to do is find March 2020, when the world shut down. It's strange, but when I just typed that... I teared up. We will never be the same after the Covid pandemic in my opinion.

I woke up each day and just read my Bible, prayed, and wrote. I developed outlines of series, I charted the entire New Testament... and hated the isolation.

There had been a lot of momentum headed into that time... the Bass team was getting national recognition, I was writing a lot of coaching psychology, and then...boom.

During this time I wrote some of my favorite series:

Keeping Your Wits was a re-editing of the Psalms of Ascent. It starts here:

Keeping Your Wits- 2020

It started like thisI don't have a lot to offer during this time of global uncertainty, but I do feel compelled to write. Possibly, this will be some sort of solid substance to steady a weary soul. These are revised offerings that come directly from the "Songs of Ascent"


Here is an effort to encourage my brothers and sisters who are currently in "The Mitigation".

As I was charting the New Testament- I started writing poems and short stories... and I became especially drawn to Peter. I wrote a series called "The Rock Speaks" and intertwined these short stories among the analysis. For some reason... this series is my favorite of all time. I felt like Peter became my best friend during that time.

Here is the beginning of that series:

Peter Series (2020)

I also love the series I did on my spiritual grandfather, Bill Stegall- it was a big hit, which I loved honoring him in that way!

Stegall and the Old Goats (2021)

anyway... readership just exploded during Covid.

Before Covid I would have between 500 and 1500 views peer month... during and now after those numbers represent days...

On Dec. 29, 2021 I made a note that I had 403,588 page views at that time. Today as of this posting, I have 831,159. The covid break started a growth that hasn't stopped.

I asked Chat GPT to analyze this growth and comment on it- here is the response:

You began your blog journey on November 18, 2004, and by the end of December 2021, after 17 years of consistent effort, your blog had accumulated 403,588 views. That’s an impressive milestone, reflecting the long-term dedication you’ve put into creating meaningful content for your audience.

However, what’s remarkable is the growth you’ve experienced since then. As of today, your blog has reached a total of 831,159 views—an increase of 427,571 views in just under three years. That’s more than the total views your blog had gained in the first 17 years combined!

To break it down, during the initial period from 2004 to 2021, you were averaging about 1,968 views per month. Steady growth for sure, but what stands out is the acceleration since January 2022. Over the last two years and ten months, you’ve been averaging 12,576 views per month—a growth rate more than six times faster than before!

The story your blog tells is one of perseverance and evolution. The early years laid the foundation, and now you’re seeing the fruits of that labor in a dramatic way. With nearly half a million new views in under three years, it’s clear your blog has found its stride, and the future looks bright for continued growth.




Wednesday, October 23, 2024

Jayopsis: 20 years- Pt. 3 The 'Lean' Years (2014-2017)

Note:
Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 

The picture in this post is 2014 while I was signing some books (I was in the 50 Years of Faith book for Alabama football, written by Wayne Atcheson).

I had a lot going on in this 3 year period- I was writing a devotional every day for my Wordpress site (actually I would write 3 on Sunday and then try to stay 2 days ahead of my post date with content- if AI existed in those days, it would have helped me!)

The BCS bass team was getting better and took a lot of time.

Even though my frequency was down, the variety of posts were getting a lot of clicks. I wasn't doing any series.

The first series in that period was 'Christmas in Isaiah" in 2015.

In 2016, I reposted the Gospel Confrontation series and got a big response to a series of posts on "The Voltron Force" flag football team we had in Tuscaloosa. I started a Voltron facebook page back then and they page gets a ridiculous number of likes even to this day- people LOVE Voltron.

In 2017, I wrote a post that went viral:

How We Often Get Matt. 18 Wrong

This post gets read all the time, even 7 years later.

Anyway, excited to be getting feedback for the Nov. celebration- and a lot of just 'congrats'- here are a few:

20 years ...well done!  thx for all you done for the Brakefields and also sharing a lot of great Friday nights at BCS.....no place better...all the best for another 20 years ....Tom Brakefield 

______________________________________________________________________

Congratulations on 20 years.  It's amazing how fast time has flown.

 

I have such great memories of Sunday School at CPC, but my favorite is the CPA football team singing "A Mighty Fortress is Our God".  The locker room would shake!

 

Your three wonderful daughters are the best legacy a Dad could ever hope for.

 

Best wishes,

 

Hedge Burt

Nashville, TN

Tuesday, October 22, 2024

Jayopsis: 20 Years Reflections – Pt. 2: 2011 to 2013

Note: Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 

The picture in this post is 2012- Being back in Birmingham in 2011 was such an interesting time. It was like a time warp.... I was gone for 7 years and I return to the same lunchroom seat surrounded by the same people with nothing changed but everything changed.

I wasn't in the classroom and was inserted into a really pressure packed job as the Dean of Students. You never knew what was coming each day- some days were dress codes and other days very serious issues.

The frequency of the posts are actually pretty high considering all the change- new job, new home, etc. Ii had 91 posts in 2011, 95 posts in 2012, and 53 posts in 2013.

As fas as numbers go I average about 60 posts per year and 5 posts per month. The most I have ever done in 1 month was 31 days in a row devotional series. But there are many months where there was just 1.

2011-

I picked up a copy of the Os Guinness book, The Call and it was a game changer. I wish I had read that book in my 20's and I'm a little surprised I didn't write more about it.

It took all the way to March to write much at all about the end of my Nashville days, it is realtively reserved.

I did a 30 day devotional in Proverbs that later lead to a book on Amazon.

I wrote a book called the Gospel Confrontation and decided to just put it out on the blog.

In June I wrote a short series called "Concersations with House" which I pretended to have a conversation with Dr. House of the TV series that my daughters liked at that time.

I laugh because I got a text from a good friend in Nashville who thought it was true "who is the crazy Dr, you are taking to?" I had to tell him it was fiction and a TV character.

2012

I did a fun series to start the year- "All of the Chapter 12's in the Bible for 2012" and I loved it. 

I also wrote a series called "Songs for the Climb" which is on the Psalms of Ascent and a shout of gratitude to the Peterson book  A Long Obedience in the Same Direction which I re-visited during Covid and re-titled and re-edited- 'Keeping Your Wits While Others Are Insane"

2013- Explosive Growth- 

In January 2013, I wrote a number of posts on my time as a walk-on football player at Alabama during Coach Bryant's last season. It was a huge hit with many former players weighing in.

Then I wrote a short series on the problem of bullying- the 1st of that series is here:

Sharp Barbs, Fragile Hearts, Abundant Pain

This is most viral of anything I had written to date which shows how hot a topic it was. It was re-posted on a number of Christian School blogs and was turned into an e-book (which I never knew what happened to that )

I guess it is good to mention that I had a number of side projects going on where I did a seperate Wordpress blog where I combined all of the Coach Bryant posts-

Bear Bryant Memories

And I started what would become a full year of devotions- that can still be used today.

Jayopsis- A Year of Devotions

later (in 2018) a lot of this would become books on Amazon.com.

I have never pushed to monetize anything I do- I just want gospel content going out... I want to show that a person who walks with Christ, struggles, has a real life... I want my children and grandchildren to read Iwas a man of flesh and blood


I got the gospel for free.... why should I expect to make money by sharing it?



Monday, October 21, 2024

Jayopsis: 20 Years Reflections – Pt. 1: The Nashville Days

Note: Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 


Jayopsis.com started as a way for me to jot down notes and research during back-to-back study halls while I was teaching Bible and coaching football at CPA in Nashville. A colleague showed me how to set up an online “web log”—what we now call a “blog.” If you look at my early posts, they were unorganized and had little content. I was just experimenting with a lot of time on my hands.

In November 2004, I wrote 13 posts, many of which were drafts of poems or essays I’d already been working on. Those early Nashville posts were a blend of football and Bible study, with a strong emphasis on apologetics. I was trying to flesh out the research I was doing at the time and integrate my faith into everything—including coaching.

Football was a huge part of that season in my life. I struggled with the ups and downs of coaching under tough circumstances while trying to maintain a Biblical view of what coaching should look like. We had some incredible wins during my time in Nashville, but we also had some heartbreaking losses—almost providential moments that God used to press and stretch me.

Looking back, there are times I wish I could have a do-over. I feel like I would be so much better now with what I know, but God had a different plan for me.

On December 7, 2010, I was fired as a coach. It's fascinating to look back and see that I kept blogging during that critical time. It took months to process the pain, shame, and anger, but none of those deep emotions show up in my posts. In fact, around that time, I wrote a series about my dramatic weight loss, with the title teasing: “The Blog Everyone Has Been Asking For.” People would click on it expecting me to address being fired, only to find me writing about my diet. Typical of me!

We moved to Nashville in 2004 and returned to Birmingham in 2011. Those memories almost feel like a different life. But God used that time to prepare me for what was next at Briarwood. I miss so many people from those years. It was a sweet, sweet time with my wife and girls—we only had each other, and the time we spent together was pure gold.

Favorite Posts from the Nashville Years

  • The Butter Slide of Praise
    This one was short, but it meant a lot to me when I heard that Dabo Swinney shared it with his staff. It made me realize there might be an audience for my writing.

  • January–June 2006
    This was a period of intense reading and analysis on existentialism and postmodernism. I was devouring books and doing some really good work during this time.

  • April–May 2007
    My research on the history of Princeton was a highlight. I even traveled to Princeton with Dr. David Calhoun, which was life-changing research for me.

  • 2008
    I wrote several posts on intelligent design, three or four of which were reposted on larger Reformed websites. I was so honored when people reached out to comment, including one who wrote:
    "Wish there were more of you! You are in my prayers, with love. May the LORD bless you, always and in all ways. In Jesus' name, Amen!"

  • Summer of 2009
    This was probably the most in-depth Bible research I had done before the AI era. I dove deep into the Book of Romans, reading nearly every commentary I could find. Later, I turned my attention to Revelation, which helped me create content for a course on Romans and Revelation.

  • January 2010
    The Tennessean asked me to write a reflection on Coach Bryant, which turned into a series about my time as a walk-on at Alabama. It expanded my readership significantly. Some critics accused me of embellishing stories, but then a few teammates left comments confirming how true they were—those moments gave me a good laugh.

Between 2009 and 2010, I could tell my writing was maturing, and I was responding more to reader feedback. By December 2011, I finally passed 1,000 page views for the blog’s entire history.

When we moved back to Birmingham, the blog began gaining momentum, and readership continued to grow.


Current numbers: Oct 21, 2024- All Time830904

Friday, October 18, 2024

The Manosphere? We Are a Circus Show

In a world where we struggle defining gender, the things we do to over analyze everything is so far off true north that we are spinning out of control!

The other day, a buddy of mine threw a label my way that left me scratching my head. We were catching up, talking about life, and somewhere in the middle of our conversation, he said, "You know, you're such a Sigma Male." Now, I’d never heard the term before. I didn’t know if I should be offended, flattered, or just plain confused. So, naturally, I did what anyone would do when they’re called something they don’t understand: I looked it up.

What is a Sigma Male?

Turns out, being called a Sigma Male is a contemporary slang—something that comes from the manosphere, an online collection of forums and communities where men talk about masculinity, gender roles, and relationships. You’ve probably heard of Alpha Males, those dominant, take-charge guys who lead the pack, and maybe even Beta Males, who are seen as more passive or follower types. But Sigma? That was new to me.

The Sigma Male is often described as a "lone wolf" type. Unlike Alphas who thrive on leading others and dominating social hierarchies, Sigma Males prefer to live on their own terms, outside of any traditional structure. They have a lot of the confidence and independence of an Alpha but aren’t looking for validation or followers. Sigmas do their own thing, and they do it without the need for attention or recognition.


As I read more, I found some key traits associated with Sigma Males:

Independence: They prefer to go their own way and aren’t bothered by what others think or expect of them.


Quiet Confidence: Unlike the loud, assertive Alpha, Sigmas are more reserved but equally sure of themselves.


Introverted but Capable of Leadership: They don’t seek out leadership roles, but when the situation calls for it, they can step up and lead without needing the spotlight.


Rejection of Social Norms: Sigmas tend to operate outside traditional social structures. They don’t care much for status symbols or climbing the social ladder.


Minimalism in Relationships: They are selective about their relationships, focusing on deep, meaningful connections rather than having a large social circle.

So, does any of this sound familiar? I’ve always considered myself someone who values independence and doesn’t care much about conforming to social expectations. I’m fine doing my own thing, and I’ve never felt the need to be part of a crowd just for the sake of fitting in. I don’t chase after leadership roles, but if I need to get something done, I’ll take charge. And while I have plenty of friends, I’m selective about the people I let into my inner circle.


Then, I stumbled onto something else: the manosphere, where this whole Sigma Male thing seems to come from. The manosphere is a collection of online spaces where men talk about topics like masculinity, relationships, and the challenges men face today. It’s where labels like Alpha, Beta, and Sigma have grown into full-blown personality archetypes. The manosphere itself is a mixed bag, with some communities focused on self-improvement and men’s rights, and others, frankly, going down some pretty negative, misogynistic paths.

It’s easy to see why some people might get hooked on the idea of labeling themselves as a certain "type" of man. It offers a simple way to make sense of where you fit in the world. But the problem with labels is that they can be restrictive, boxing people into certain categories when, in reality, human behavior is way more complex.


After digging into the Sigma Male idea, I could see why my friend thought it described me. I don’t fit neatly into the Alpha role, and I’m definitely not someone who cares about social pecking orders. I’d rather go my own way and live life according to my own principles. And while I don’t mind stepping up when needed, I’m not trying to dominate the room. I just do what I think is right and move on.

But here’s the thing: I don’t like labels. In fact, I’ve always resisted being categorized, whether it’s by personality types, social roles, or anything else. People are too complex to be summed up by a single word. And funny enough, it’s that exact resistance to labels that probably means my friend was right. Maybe I am what he said I am: a Sigma Male.

At the end of the day, though, I’ll just stick to being me. Labels or not, that’s the only thing I’ve ever really cared about.

yes- another song:



Wednesday, October 16, 2024

Questions for My Readers- Celebrating 20 Years

Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

I have already received some responses- but here is a guide that may help you- pick one or more questions and send me your response- I hope to get some from out of the country as well. 

1. Personal Reflection on Blog Content

  • Which blog post or topic has resonated with you the most over the years? Why?
  • How has reading this blog impacted your life or perspective?

2. Feedback and Improvement

  • What is one thing you would like to see more of on the blog? (e.g., certain topics, types of posts, or formats)
  • Is there any topic I haven’t covered that you think would be valuable?

3. Engagement and Community

  • Do you have a memorable interaction from the blog’s community that stands out? Share your story!
  • How did you first discover this blog, and what keeps you coming back?

4. Looking Ahead

  • What are your hopes for the blog in the next 5 or 10 years?
  • If you could ask the blog’s writer any question, what would it be?

5. Life Connection

  • How do the topics on this blog relate to what you’re experiencing in your own life?
  • What has been the most encouraging or inspiring idea you’ve taken from the blog?

6. Fun and Creative

  • If you could describe this blog in three words, what would they be?
  • If you could choose one blog post to turn into a book, which one would it be and why?
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The Tension of Beauty and Longing: Reflections on Keats and the "Soulfight"

 

John Keats’s Ode to a Grecian Urn is a timeless exploration of the interplay between beauty, truth, and the human experience. In this poem, Keats confronts the paradox of art and life: while the figures on the urn are forever frozen in perfect moments of love and joy, their existence is ultimately unattainable. Keats writes, “Beauty is truth, truth beauty,” inviting us to ponder the nature of our desires and the realities we face. This tension resonates deeply, reminding us of the unfulfilled longings that shape our lives.

In my own journey, I have spent months wrestling with this tension. Matthew Forester shared the Revivalist song in early 2024 and it haunted me as I wondered what it meant and I had a lot of thoughts—the garden, the tree, the poems, and the songs—all reflecting the beauty of the struggle. I find that “to ravish the bride actually eliminates the beauty,” a sentiment that echoes the core of Keats’s work. This wrestling mirrors the “soulfight”—the struggle between the known and the unknown, the moments we can grasp and those that slip through our fingers.

This tension is mirrored in the Revivalist song “Soulfight,” which captures the essence of this battle. The lyrics reflect a longing for something deeper and a desire to understand our place in the world:

So I'm gonna stand here by your fire'Cause it's a cold one tonightI'm taking care of soulfightAnd you're the reason why
Well, I don't ask question and I don't tell no liesAnd that's the reason whyI'm taking care of soulfightAnd you're the reason why

These lines resonate with the feelings expressed in Keats's ode. Both works delve into the heart of what it means to live between moments of beauty and the inevitability of loss. Keats’s urn stands as a symbol of what could be—eternal and unchanging—while our lives are filled with the vibrant messiness of time, filled with joy and sorrow, fulfillment and longing.

The echoes of Keats's themes are evident in our own creative expressions. Just as he grappled with the fleeting nature of beauty, we find ourselves exploring the unravished aspects of our lives—the dreams that remain just out of reach, the moments that hold our hearts in a delicate balance. In the song "Unravished Bride," we confront the dualities of existence:



And if the moment dared to break,

Would the colors fade, would the music quake?

Would you still wear that ethereal grace,

Or find the truth in time's embrace?

Like the urn that speaks of love and strife,

Whispers of beauty, the essence of life.


These lyrics speak to the struggle we all face: the pursuit of understanding and fulfillment in a world filled with uncertainties. They echo Keats's reflections on the beauty of the urn and the sorrow of knowing that perfect moments are often just that—perfect but unreachable.

As I navigate my own “soulfight(s),” I embrace the beauty of this wrestling, knowing that it is in the tension between longing and fulfillment that we discover what it means to be human. The beauty of the unknown beckons us to create, to reflect, and to embrace the complexities of our existence. Just as Keats immortalized the unravished bride of the urn, so too do we seek to capture the fleeting beauty of our experiences, recognizing that even in the struggle, there is art, there is hope, and there is life.

You can find the music here:

The Unravished Bride of the Unknown

The Unknown and Unrealized



Monday, October 14, 2024

Celebrating 20 Years of Jayopsis: Join the Celebration!

Send your thoughts or writing to me at jayopsis@gmail.com

On Sunday night, November 10, 2024, I’ll be celebrating a milestone that I never could have imagined when I first started this journey: 20 years of blogging on Jayopsis.com!

What began as a small corner of the internet to share my thoughts on faith, life, and culture has grown into something that has blessed me beyond words. Over the past two decades, I’ve been privileged to connect with so many of you who have followed along, commented, shared, and even challenged my writings.

As I prepare to mark this special occasion, I want to invite YOU to join the celebration!

Whether you’ve been reading since the early days or you’re new to Jayopsis, I’d love for you to participate in what I’m planning to be a meaningful reflection on these past 20 years. From now until November 10th, I’ll be sharing special content, highlighting some of the most memorable moments, and even taking a look at what’s next for this blog.

Here’s how you can get involved:

  • Share Your Favorite Post: Do you have a blog post from the past 20 years that stands out to you? Maybe it was one that encouraged you, challenged you, or simply stuck with you. I’d love to hear about it!
  • Send in a Personal Testimony: Has something I’ve written impacted your life or your walk with God? Your testimonies are always an encouragement, and I’d love to share some as part of the celebration.
  • Join the Celebration: I’m planning to possible host a virtual event where we can connect, reflect, and give thanks for all that God has done over these years. We might possible get together in person- Stay tuned for more details.

If you’d like to be part of this 20th-anniversary celebration, please reach out to me at jayopsis@gmail.com Whether it’s sharing a memory, submitting a testimony, or joining the live event, I’d love to hear from you!

A Heartfelt Thank You

I couldn’t have made it this far without your prayers, support, and encouragement. This blog has been a place of personal growth, wrestling with truth, and finding hope in the Word of God. I’m so grateful for the community that has formed here over the years.

Stay tuned as we count down to November 10th. I’ll be sharing reflections, stories, and a few surprises along the way. Let’s celebrate this milestone together and look forward to what God has in store for the next chapter of Jayopsis!

In Christ,

Jay

Sunday, October 13, 2024

Book Review: Review of The Heart of Everything That Is: The Untold Story of Red Cloud, An American Legend by Bob Drury and Tom Clavin

Took long enough for me to finally finish it!

The Heart of Everything That Is is a gripping and deeply researched biography of Red Cloud, one of the most powerful and overlooked leaders in American history. The book captivated me from start to finish, providing an eye-opening look at the legendary Lakota chief who led his people to victory against the U.S. military in the 19th century.

What sets this biography apart is how it shines a light on Red Cloud’s strategic brilliance. His victory in Red Cloud’s War was not just about physical might, but about diplomacy, leadership, and vision. The authors skillfully detail how Red Cloud united a fractured Lakota nation and leveraged alliances with other tribes to preserve his people’s way of life against overwhelming odds.

The book also paints a vivid picture of the rugged American West, showcasing the harsh realities faced by both the Lakota and the encroaching settlers. The storytelling is fast-paced and the writing crisp, making this an engrossing read. I appreciated how Drury and Clavin wove together the narrative of Red Cloud’s personal life with the broader historical context of the United States' expansion into Native American lands.

For me, The Heart of Everything That Is not only sheds light on Red Cloud’s tactical genius but also portrays his enduring legacy—how he fought not just for territory, but for the survival of his people and their culture. It's a fascinating and at times heartbreaking story that brings much-deserved attention to a true American legend.

In conclusion, I found this book fantastic, and I highly recommend it to anyone interested in American history, Native American leaders, or those who enjoy well-researched biographies. Red Cloud’s story is one that should be known, and this book does it justice.

It also inspired a song- you can listen to it here:

Red Cloud's War

Friday, October 11, 2024

Keeping the Fire: A Life Survival Guide


Note: This was originally published 10 years ago- and is still a good formula for enjoying each day we receive as a gift.

There is a character archetype in literature often referred to as the Hemingway Hero. This figure, inspired by Hemingway’s life and characters, is someone who endures purely for the sake of endurance. He pushes forward not out of virtue or belief in something greater, but simply for the sake of persevering. In this, he finds a form of strength, a gritty determination that celebrates endurance for its own sake.

Hemingway wasn’t the first to capture this. Existentialists like Sartre and Camus built entire philosophies around perseverance and rebellion against meaninglessness. No one can deny the power of standing contra mundum—against the world’s grain. Camus immortalized this in his famous essay, The Myth of Sisyphus, where the ancient Greek figure is condemned to roll a stone up a hill for eternity, only to have it roll back down each time. Despite the futility of his task, Camus concludes:

“I leave Sisyphus at the foot of the mountain! One always finds one's burden again. But Sisyphus teaches the higher fidelity that negates the gods and raises rocks. He too concludes that all is well. This universe henceforth without a master seems to him neither sterile nor futile. The struggle itself toward the heights is enough to fill a man's heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.”

Link: The Weight of the Absurd

This kind of toughness, though admirable, falls short of what we might call the abundant life. There is something ultimately empty about enduring just for the sake of endurance. The grind of life tends to leave men morbid, miserable, and weary. So, is there another way to live—one where we end our days not beaten down, but full of vigor, excitement, and hope?

Hemingway’s own life is a sobering example. His short story Indian Camp captures the heartbreak of suicide, seen through the eyes of young Nick as he questions his father about the tragedy:

“Why did he kill himself, Daddy?” “I don’t know, Nick. He couldn’t stand things, I guess.” “Do many men kill themselves, Daddy?” “Not very many, Nick.”

Years later, Hemingway—famous, wealthy, a world traveler and adventurer—called his mother in desperation, asking what he should do with his life. Her response was brutal: “Why don’t you just do what your father did?” Shortly after, Hemingway took his favorite shotgun and ended his life.

Sisyphus, Camus, Sartre, and the Hemingway hero may have found strength in the struggle, but the tragedy is undeniable. They fought, but they ultimately found no lasting hope. Is there a different way to fight and endure—a path that leads to life rather than despair?

I firmly believe there is. My life’s goal is to stay faithful to the pursuit of this kind of life—a life filled with passion, zeal, and purpose, even as the years march on.

As a football coach, I tell my players that I want to see “unbelievable effort” when we watch game film. I want our next opponent to look at the tape and say, “Wow, look at that guy—he never quits!” Can I live my life with the same kind of relentless effort? Can I continue to find passion for life as I grow older?

I believe this is not only possible but pleasing to the Lord. It also serves as a beacon of light for others. With that in mind, I’ve broken it down into seven key “H” words that can guide us in keeping the fire alive.

1. HONEST EVALUATION

Before we can move forward, we must first be honest about where we are. I’ve wasted too much time pretending to be something I’m not. There’s no shame in acknowledging past mistakes. The key is not where you’ve been, but where you’re headed. An honest evaluation reveals that, on my own, I don’t have what it takes to live this life with passion and purpose.

2. HOLY HELPER

Once we acknowledge our limitations, we open ourselves to the Helper—the Holy Spirit, who is our seal of salvation and source of strength. The Spirit brings to mind the teachings of Christ and breathes life into the Word of God. He is the one who leads, corrects, and empowers us, guiding us toward a life that burns brightly for the Lord.

3. HARD WORK

Progress comes through disciplined, consistent effort. God is a worker, and He created us to work. Work itself is not the curse—it’s the sweat, toil, and frustration that came as a result of sin. When we work diligently with a plan and purpose, we reflect God’s image. A key principle here is simple: don’t procrastinate. Do it now.

4. HUMBLE HEART

Humility is perhaps the most crucial key. A humble heart recognizes its need for help and willingly submits to guidance. There are two kinds of hearts—the rigid and the pliable. A rigid heart is full of pride, resistant to change and improvement. But a humble heart is open to correction and eager to follow the Master’s lead. James 4:6 reminds us that “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”

5. HUNGRY HEART

Humility creates a hunger in us—a yearning to learn, grow, and experience life to the fullest. Instead of becoming jaded or complacent, we can approach each day with the excitement of discovery. Life ebbs away when we adopt an attitude of “been there, done that.” Stay curious, stay passionate, and keep pressing forward.

6. HIGHER ASPIRATIONS

Aim high. I once heard a friend say, “Aim for the stars; you might only hit the moon, but you’ll hit something because you aimed high.” I have long-term goals—dreams and desires that carry me forward. I’m not in a rush, but I keep moving steadily, knowing that with God’s help, I’ll reach these milestones in His timing.

7. HOPE

How can we live without hope? For the believer, hope transcends this life. I tell my football players to run five yards past the finish line—don’t let up at the end. In the same way, we should live with the end in mind, running one more step past our last breath into the arms of Jesus.

Link: Biblical Hope

Staying Childlike

If I had to sum it all up, it would be this: stay childlike. G.K. Chesterton observed the vitality and joy that children have in repeating things. They never grow weary of wonder, and neither does God. Each day, He says to the sun, “Do it again,” and to the moon, “Do it again.” We have sinned and grown old, but our Father remains young at heart.

More Sticks, Better Fire

One final point: we burn brighter when we burn together. A single stick removed from the fire will smolder and die out, but together, we fuel each other’s flames. Surround yourself with those who will encourage you and fan the flames of your passion for Christ.

Link:   A Better Fire

Let’s live with passion, vigor, and zeal until the very end. This will inspire those who come after us—our children, our grandchildren—to live the same way. There will be dark seasons, but we can never settle for mediocrity. We fight against the night, and in that fight, we find renewed energy and purpose.

Some may call this naive, but I’m determined to stay excited about life, even in the small things. When I get knocked down, I’ll keep getting back up. And I’ll keep pushing forward, rolling up my sleeves, and living fully, even now.

Link: Fighting the Fade

Link: I Smile as The Glory Fades



Thursday, October 10, 2024

Stamped on Lifeless Things- Ozymandias

It is amazing how often I am drawn back to this poem. It is dystopian and apocalyptic, but so mesmerizing.

I get sad when I think that human pride and lust for things can hurl us to a brokeness we can't even imagine.

A shattered visage- 

It is such an impressive work.


OZYMANDIAS
BY PERCY BYSSHE SHELLEY

I met a traveller from an antique land,
Who said—“Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. . . . Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;
And on the pedestal, these words appear:

My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings;
Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!

Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away."

Ozymandius is the great Ramses of Egypt and this poem is a veiled reference to some artifacts that were being delivered to the British Natural History museum. a 14 line sonnet, there is elite narrative and meaning.

The obvious message is that the pride of man always falls to the forces of time and nature in unrelenting entropy.

But I often focus on the sculptor, the one who captured the essence of the king.

I love the idea of how he carved the passions he saw in the real man and 'stamped' it on a lifeless thing.

Did he capture the real person or is this his judgement on the leader?
Of course the pedestal was approved no doubt!

In this age of AI and technology- what are we 'stamping' on lifeless things?

I also love the phrase, antique land

No matter how powerful or ruthless, he eventually crumbles to the sand and known no longer!

And that life was a 'colossal wreck'!

What an image!

 note: I wrote a song in 2024 that was an allusion to this poem- you can listen to it here:

Hurricanes and Black Holes: They May Look the Same, but Totally Different


At first glance, the swirling motion of hurricanes and black holes may seem eerily similar. Both feature a central region that exerts immense influence over the surrounding environment, and both involve rotating patterns that draw material inward. Yet, despite these visual similarities, hurricanes and black holes are fundamentally different phenomena, driven by entirely distinct forces. This paper will explore the processes behind each, highlighting their similarities and, more importantly, their key differences.
The Forces Behind Hurricanes

Hurricanes are among the most powerful and destructive storms on Earth, yet their formation and movement are the result of relatively familiar atmospheric and oceanic processes. Several factors contribute to their development, all of which are rooted in the Earth's natural systems:

Warm Water and Humid Air

The energy that fuels a hurricane comes primarily from the ocean. Warm sea surface temperatures, typically above 80°F (27°C), cause large amounts of water to evaporate into the atmosphere. This moist, warm air rises quickly, creating a low-pressure zone at the surface.

The Coriolis Effect

As warm air rises, it begins to rotate due to the Coriolis effect—a result of Earth's rotation. This force causes the air to spiral counterclockwise in the Northern Hemisphere and clockwise in the Southern Hemisphere. The Coriolis effect is responsible for the characteristic rotating structure of hurricanes, with winds spiraling inward toward the storm's center.
Low-Pressure Center

At the core of a hurricane is a region of extremely low pressure. This "eye" is surrounded by the eye wall, where the storm’s winds and rain are most intense. Air from surrounding areas rushes toward the low-pressure center, feeding the storm and causing it to intensify. As the warm, moist air rises and cools, it condenses into clouds, releasing latent heat, which further powers the storm.

Structure and Growth

As the air spirals inward and upward, the hurricane grows in size and strength. The storm’s structure becomes more defined, with distinct bands of thunderstorms circulating around the eye. This process can continue for days, as long as the storm remains over warm water and favorable atmospheric conditions.

The Forces Behind Black Holes

In contrast, black holes are not atmospheric phenomena but astrophysical objects, formed through processes entirely foreign to the Earth's weather systems. They are regions in space where gravity is so intense that not even light can escape, leading to their "black" appearance. The forces behind black holes are based on the fundamental laws of gravity and mass:

Gravitational Collapse

Black holes form when massive stars, typically more than 20 times the mass of the Sun, reach the end of their life cycle. After exhausting their nuclear fuel, these stars can no longer support themselves against gravitational collapse. If the star is massive enough, its core collapses under the force of its own gravity, compressing matter into an incredibly dense point known as a singularity.

The Event Horizon

The event horizon is the boundary surrounding the black hole. It marks the point at which the gravitational pull becomes so strong that nothing—not even light—can escape. Inside the event horizon, the known laws of physics cease to apply, and spacetime becomes infinitely warped. In many ways, the event horizon represents the "point of no return" for anything that ventures too close.

Accretion Disks

While black holes are often imagined as purely empty voids, many are surrounded by swirling disks of matter, known as accretion disks. These disks form when gas, dust, and even stars are drawn toward the black hole. As the material spirals inward, it heats up and radiates energy, sometimes emitting powerful X-rays or other forms of radiation before it finally crosses the event horizon. The motion of this swirling matter is perhaps the closest visual similarity between black holes and hurricanes, though their underlying causes differ vastly.

Comparing Hurricanes and Black Holes

Rotation

One of the most striking similarities between hurricanes and black holes is their rotation. In hurricanes, the Coriolis effect causes air to spiral around a central low-pressure area, while in black holes, the conservation of angular momentum causes matter to spiral into the accretion disk. However, the forces driving this motion are fundamentally different: hurricanes are governed by atmospheric dynamics, while black holes are ruled by gravity and relativistic effects.

Energy Source

The source of energy that powers hurricanes and black holes also differs dramatically. Hurricanes are fueled by the heat from warm ocean waters, which causes evaporation and convection. This process drives the storm’s growth and intensification. In contrast, black holes are powered by gravity, pulling in matter from their surroundings with an inexorable force that warps spacetime itself.

Nature of the Center

Perhaps the most profound difference lies in the nature of the centers of hurricanes and black holes. A hurricane’s eye is relatively calm and clear, often providing a brief respite from the storm’s violent winds and rains. In stark contrast, the center of a black hole—the singularity—is a point of infinite density where the known laws of physics break down. The calm of a hurricane’s eye belies the storm’s strength, while the singularity represents the ultimate culmination of a black hole’s destructive power.

Summary

Though hurricanes and black holes may look alike in certain respects, they are driven by entirely different forces and operate on vastly different scales. Hurricanes are immense atmospheric systems fueled by the heat of the ocean and governed by the rotation of the Earth. Black holes, on the other hand, are cosmic objects formed from gravitational collapse, with forces so extreme that even light cannot escape. While their swirling patterns may evoke similar imagery, the underlying physics that governs these two phenomena could not be more distinct.

Hurricanes affect life on Earth, while black holes remind us of the vast, unknown forces that shape the universe. Understanding both helps us appreciate the intricate, yet vastly different, forces at play in nature and the cosmos.